heart.
Yonglin
the dancer/ the performer/ the expressive one/ the emo one/the happy cheerful one/ the huggable one/ the sweetest one/ the fun loving one/ the crazy one.etc
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:D!
legally 19 turning on 20 on 22 november.get me presents on that day":))
she is a cow lover!!she likes being up on stage and if she is up there, remember to cheer for her as loud as you could.she favours ice cream and choc alot.she has a small pillow that she hugs to sleep everynight.She has braces that makes her teeth shiny whenever she smiles.:))she loves the people that loves her. she likes hanging out with anyone that is nice:) She can be as random as you can imagine, very blur and
she is different from you cause her sky is't blue. its filled with whatever colour she want it to be
purple,red,yellow,orange. or any outragous colour. she is happy with her sky.what colour is your sky?
Wednesday, October 31, 2007!
HandWritten on; 9:26 AM
i always choose to tell lies to myself. so i wont be expose to any naked information that i dont wan to know.or should i say seeing things differently, from another perspective. i never expected that approach, looking at this matter, it always revolves around trust.
its going to get even more complicated in the future.i cant always have that naive thinking anymore. in what way am i going to sail through those rough times? bumpy road, tidal waves..
take it as a challenge then. ill never know whats going to happen if i dont try. i just wish everythings going to be fine. but i cant just simply sit down and wish without doing anything. still have to fight for it? give it a fierce battle and never regret?
ha. yeah right. im preaching about what everyone thinks that its right. and probalby comment "thats the positive attitude!" ha. but im the contradicting one. fight? battle? ha.. its easier said than done. at any point of time. giving up floods my mind.
who's not afraid of being alone? its not easy to make friends with "loneliness". it brings you out of the world. build up four walls just nice to cover yourself up. that his/her way of protecting you. and because its your only friend. you are overjoyed to have that friend.
occasionally you will find yourself better with "loneliness" because he/she is probably the one that knows you better than anyone else. though he/she always claims otherwise. he/she never will scream or shout at you. he/she will provide you a listening ear. a silent one that you would like to have but somehow you will detest it at the same time. isn't it?
ill soon be worn out. my throat hurts. im falling sick. and soon....
on the surface and the inner side.. it contradicts. im tired of this contradiction. im tired of smiling.........
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