im begining to wonder what do i blog for.?? why am i blogging?? complains?? tell pple abt my life??(like they wan to know?? like they wan to care??) type things that i cant sae out.. in words??

why do pple blog for??

to let others know how they feel?? how they think??

to let others be sad and depressed and give sympathy to the blogger after reading a whole chunk of things he/she wrote??

or to let e one see and know things that are unable to sae it out directly??

do i have to be like this...??

reading blogs has become a chore to me.. caz afterall i care... sometimes.. it can be juz like millions of needles poking ur chest at the same time.. tormenting...

however... people are unaware of the content they write in their blog..

i dislike my being nice angelic me...
whats the point..

when smiling becomes a burden..
i see no point in my smile anymore...
i always have this in mind tat i want to make the people around me smile?? or at least be happy with me around.. so i go out to all extend to do so... listen.. talked.. give some big hug or somethg...crap.. joke.. act silly.. sae stupid stuff... juz to make eu laugh...ha image?? long gone..
why am i doing this??
sometimes i juz dun see wads the point of doing such things...
today's rehearsal sort of "enlightened" me??!!

when eu start to tell one everything..
eu would like to tell all..
but when eu do that..
eu dunno if the person is willing to listen to eu or not...
or when eu do that...
it might juz not be the right time..
or when eu do that...
eu appear to be weak during the process...
or when eu do tat...
eu fear of adding on ur problems to e other party.. or in other words burden e other too..
and when eu do tat...
eu would hope that the other party wil share it tots wif eu too..
afterall eu care...


whats the point of this??