i dunno wad has gotten into me...
im going to be rebellous soon..
i hate what i am behaving right now....
and i juz cant express wad am i feeling...

shit this whole thinking process..
i haven made a decision...
shit this whole damn feeling...
i cant stop it frm coming...
shit this few days seriously...
and stop asking me about it...
shit this whole forcing time...
trying to get something out of me...

(im sorry abt the vulgarities... in this blog entry....)

im going bck to those days againn.. wad the hell is with me.... i juz feel like slapping myself with fishes and make myself stink like shit...i dunno wad is tat for caz im alreadi in a mess.. and a struggle... juz wad am i thinking.... WHATS THE POINT!!!

my rebellous act has gotten into me...
i went home onli at ard 11.30 to catch the last bus..
late..
for a mondae night...

i dun feel like speaking...
i dont feel like talking..
i dun feel like smiling....
i dun feel like going home...

im like a piece of meat now...

sch like shit...bmgt finished..
in the afternoon..
i realli dun feel like making a sound...
sorry... if my presence have bored eu...
mondae blues gotten into me since the start of the day...
but stil thanks...

i wished enzo was here...
ojisan....was needed....
but i dunno how to sae........

mayb i wil tel eu my reason.....
hear me out.. pls.??

went for FOC meeting... jiv was there..sabrina and the rest too...
hock up on the camp crew job...
and most likely station games if not water games.. if not night walk...
but NOT a GL...
yarr.. i cant be a GL larr...
anywae theres a few camps tat we need to go...

22feb - TBC bonding dae.
6-9march- trail camp.
2-5april - FOC 07/08

datelines and dates have been set for jing tuan grad...
so.. this week start rehearsals...
i got my dream role..
and its funny lar.... black humour role...
lao shi sae i got the feel...
so... imagine lor..
(wad if i realli have been into the place before???? wahahahaahaa...)
for those tat know alreadi... i dun mind laughters..
for those tat dunno... its for eu to find out on the 29 of april.. our graduation....

this sat have to go back to huiguan again.. and devote my day dere..
and its nad's big day too.. so im not going to strongly devote my time there..
and go celebrate nad's birthdae... she is 18!!! faster go DRIVE!!!

qnt2 progress is hmm good..
but kinda worrying...
now i finally understand wad liren always mean by worry before others worry..
maybe some of us are juz putting too much on ourselves...


that includes me....

anywae... i going to b one more week of xiao jie jie...
caz ling lao shi's class still got kids CRYING!!!
so.. have to help out again...
make sure all dun cry lorr...
hmm.. but compared to my other class... this class is more hmmm...active??
liting's class is very HUGGY... but dey got realli distracted easily...

a sentence of advice: when eu see a kid start crying... pls dun make him/her stand down dere n cry on her/his own... DO SOMETHING!!!

juz do something.....

and when he/she stops crying... u will smile to urself.... seriously... its like joy to the world she is not crying anymore??!!

juz a penny of my tots...

at this point of time... i think im hiding too much.. im running away.... i will go misssing... one dae...

thnks kiantong for his gift frm taiwan.. arigatou...

im looking forward to wed too.. girl date.. with her...my body??

jaa ne.. i got to rush to sch.. for 2hrs of tuitorial..sian.